black

you know how it feels like when something important has just happened and no one bothered to tell you? and you already know it. but its something so important that you should be one of the first few to know. and yet. here i am, still supposedly clueless. thanks alot. i am not as dumb as i look. quite the contrary, i am very perceptive.

i have decided to brainstorm on ideas for this new competition by black library. if i actually manage to get through, i may get published in a very nerdy and geeky sci fi book. and not to mention, get paid. but its not for the money. it never was. i would like to say its for the pure joy of creating something. technically it is, but i am taking part in it for the recognition. even if it is amongst a geeky warhammer community. its still something. in fact, for me, its alot. because, i am part of the community as well. i have read the creations of others. but i have always wanted others to take a step into my mind and see whats there. in terms of warhammer that is. maybe this might be a ticket. an opportunity. it may be wasted away by my own folly. or by my lack of ideas. (hopefully not because i got a rather good one now) but thats not going to stop me from trying. i mean. i got free time you see. even though its scattered everywhere. a little bit of sacrifice, and everything falls to place.

by the way. i am almost there. it seems my work is paying off. hehex.